Well - welcome to my new blog format - open to comments which i can screen - you dont have to be a member to comment either u can comment as anonymous as well if u like!
First off apologies for the lack of blogging recently but im back now and ill make sure i post some stuff as often as I had said i would.
Firstly I'd like to plug my birthday special - see the welcome page or my personal space in the www.sensualdownunder.com.au forum.
Secondly i'd like to point out im now an SDU(sensualdownunder) advertiser - so if you are an SDU frequenter every so often ull get some pics and banner for me round that site along with the other fabulous ladies over there.
Now for some kind of meaningful post - the topic for today is about me finding escorting emotionally fulfilling. Oddly enough im not some kind of sexual, unemotional robot and being a sex worker can be a great thing.
I think one of the most fulfilling things about this line of work is that it is one for the few jobs where you can directly make other people feel good. In an office you make paperwork (even if its electronic) which makes more work for other people so really makes no one happy. I guess the sex industry is a bit like being a tradesman, the services you provide directly cause improvements for the people you meet. There is nothing better than knowing the hour or so of effort you just put in has left another person feeling alot better than before it all started. I also like to cater for fantasies - i like people to tell me what they really want, maybe its something they've never experienced but wanted to - and I like to make it happen.
I love meeting people, talking to people, getting to understand how people work. I find in such an intimate situation people can be alot more open then they are normally.
Also, sex work has boosted my self confidence immensely. Hard to believe for anyone who has met me but I was once very shy, not the least bit outgoing, and I had a pretty poor view of myself. Stick me in a situation when men are choosing girls over one another, putting down maybe a day or mores wages for an hour with a girl, and when some of them are choosing you over girl who you considered a zillion times better looking than yourself and you start to feel pretty fine. This continues you get regular customer, people hear about you from others - as someone who was never the popular kid at school - this is mindblowing. Ha ha i always wanted to be popular - i just didnt see escorting as a way to achieve it. With this kind of confidence its easy to just be "out there", i like to show myself and my personality on my site just how I am, no bullshit. I want people to choose to see me, because they like how I am, not because they like some false character ive created, just because they think "hey she seems like a cool chick".
Since joining SDU, ive gotten reviews. reviews are the best thing in the world - not just for some great marketing tool (though they work wonders) but because they are interesting and can be quite emotionally touching. It goes back to the whole self esteem/self confidence thing i was just talking about and the making people happy thing - you can read about how you made someone feel, what they thought about you, and what you made them feel. After reading a review i feel pretty spesh. I combined my reviews so far in my personal space on the SDU forum, not just for potential clients ease but for mine. I'm not going to kid you, i dont have it all together - no one does - but when im feeling a bit down on myself a read through reviews is an awesome pick me up.
Just a note - this isnt a scab for reviews - but if u feel even slightly inclined, please do even a simple one liner can be nice (though if its more in depth i might have myself some one-handed net surfing material if you catch my drift)
Its also been great over the years meeting girls in brothels, hearing their stories, sharing experiences, tips etc... winging bout unpleasant clients, chatting about the good ones. In the girls room, most girls are open, they are all fabulous people some are emotionally damaged but they are all strong inspiring women and for the most part very supportive.
I think being involved in the sex industry has open my eyes as to what people are really like so much more than any other experience ever could have.
